Tuesday, October 26, 2004
Considerin'
What's the secret to happiness?
Are we even certain it's only one secret. For sure it can't be one. Happiness in itself doesn't encompass one aspect of one's life. (Are we counting the "ones"?)...It surely encompasses many parts of it. Can one be happy in a career for e.g. and their love life is hellish, and consider themselves happy? I dunno. If it was the reverse, are they truly happy? Who knows. Wouldn't it also depend on what they consider most important in their life? Maybe as well. There are truly too many variables.
Plus, what is it? What is happiness? Is it bliss? Is it serenity? Is it all of the above? Could be. Isn't that the cool part, for anyone and everyone its truly case-specific. Its a "me" specific for no one can dictate your own happiness. Not your mom, your mate, your boss? Nah, definately not, unless of course they measure something in your life, unless they are the "something" that you would consider most important. If they aren't THE variable though, maybe they sholdn't have the permission to dictate then. Right?
So what have we learned in class today children...well, no one thing can make you happy? maybe its a combination of things, or maybe for some, one is all it takes. One thing is certain (I've lost track of those "ones"), simplicity in life doesn't hurt. Try to simplify, less is sometimes better.
kisses
Are we even certain it's only one secret. For sure it can't be one. Happiness in itself doesn't encompass one aspect of one's life. (Are we counting the "ones"?)...It surely encompasses many parts of it. Can one be happy in a career for e.g. and their love life is hellish, and consider themselves happy? I dunno. If it was the reverse, are they truly happy? Who knows. Wouldn't it also depend on what they consider most important in their life? Maybe as well. There are truly too many variables.
Plus, what is it? What is happiness? Is it bliss? Is it serenity? Is it all of the above? Could be. Isn't that the cool part, for anyone and everyone its truly case-specific. Its a "me" specific for no one can dictate your own happiness. Not your mom, your mate, your boss? Nah, definately not, unless of course they measure something in your life, unless they are the "something" that you would consider most important. If they aren't THE variable though, maybe they sholdn't have the permission to dictate then. Right?
So what have we learned in class today children...well, no one thing can make you happy? maybe its a combination of things, or maybe for some, one is all it takes. One thing is certain (I've lost track of those "ones"), simplicity in life doesn't hurt. Try to simplify, less is sometimes better.
kisses
Monday, October 25, 2004
Kudos
I did it.
I really did.
I can't believe that after all these years, at this stage in my life, this stage in the game, I finally did it. It seems so weird to say this, I've finally seen South Beach! there I said it, and the funniest part is that I'm over 21!
Ok, so all the young-er-er people seeing this will retaliate by skipping to the next blog. That's ok, I understand. But for those who finally took that first step, to doing something that you never thought you had the balls(male or female) to do, yes female balls exist, I guess this 'Sankie' is for you.
I've been scared of the "beach", the life, the unattainables, and I guess this is no existence to really live one's life. This trip, the nightlife all of it represented a break from my shell. This is a really big step for me. I don't do the club thing much, I think I got it out of my system pretty early on. But this was a nice distraction (remember I said I wanted one earlier-er-er).
Ladies in free and drink free, I can't believe I wasn't there sooner!!
I'm not the proverbial rumhead, but I used to be, at one stage in the game. ...Why is everything game mode to me (...that's a shout out). Apple martinis rock!!! I couldn't wait to hear my Snoop song "drop it like its hot", which I did the 3 times it played, and of course I went to a hip hop/dancehall club, which unfortunately played mostly hip hop and not enough dancehall. Disappointing in that respect as the "/" would have indicated that they would have played each genre equally. Yes, to all those that don't know, they are different genres. I'm Jamaican, so all my fellow Jamaicans would understand the misrepresentation.
Anywho, Kudos to me. I'm taking steps, (not giant leaps and bounds yet) and Im dropping it, like its hot, cause it is!!
kisses
I really did.
I can't believe that after all these years, at this stage in my life, this stage in the game, I finally did it. It seems so weird to say this, I've finally seen South Beach! there I said it, and the funniest part is that I'm over 21!
Ok, so all the young-er-er people seeing this will retaliate by skipping to the next blog. That's ok, I understand. But for those who finally took that first step, to doing something that you never thought you had the balls(male or female) to do, yes female balls exist, I guess this 'Sankie' is for you.
I've been scared of the "beach", the life, the unattainables, and I guess this is no existence to really live one's life. This trip, the nightlife all of it represented a break from my shell. This is a really big step for me. I don't do the club thing much, I think I got it out of my system pretty early on. But this was a nice distraction (remember I said I wanted one earlier-er-er).
Ladies in free and drink free, I can't believe I wasn't there sooner!!
I'm not the proverbial rumhead, but I used to be, at one stage in the game. ...Why is everything game mode to me (...that's a shout out). Apple martinis rock!!! I couldn't wait to hear my Snoop song "drop it like its hot", which I did the 3 times it played, and of course I went to a hip hop/dancehall club, which unfortunately played mostly hip hop and not enough dancehall. Disappointing in that respect as the "/" would have indicated that they would have played each genre equally. Yes, to all those that don't know, they are different genres. I'm Jamaican, so all my fellow Jamaicans would understand the misrepresentation.
Anywho, Kudos to me. I'm taking steps, (not giant leaps and bounds yet) and Im dropping it, like its hot, cause it is!!
kisses
Friday, October 22, 2004
Game Over
No, sorry. This is no homage to some video game, although I'm a fan of the fighting genre. Yes Tekken is way too cool. I would however have to update my lingo etc, to include the newest titles, and sadly I don't subscribe to IGN or PS2 mags, nor do I watch or indulge in Tech TV...big OOooops.
Haven't found that distraction yet, but I haven't given up on finding it yet. I however have to remember to keep my morals, my everythings, intact though.
Had another weird dream last night, rather sexual, but so freakish weird, I felt like I was on a non-stop train to Hell when I woke up. In my dreams , I'm always the observer, like the events do not happen to me, but I still feel the fear or the emotions that come with the event. Last night was no different. Always looking in on something spectacular/or horrid, happening to someone else. but its always someone else, never really to me. Once in a while, Im stabbed or choked or something happens, but as you can see, I could count the times...as if "once in a while" is a numeric value. To me it is, it signifies a "not enough" as it would pertain to the item I'm talking of. Ok, I even lost myself there...I always do that. Back to the always looking on , as it happens to someone else, even my actual life has been like that recently. Always the looker-on-er (say it slowly). More like the loner. Let me not mope anymore, I'm sure there are lots of people would would prefer, being alone than to be with the one they are with now. Let me know. I could be so wrong, I'm far, very far from being the authority here.
kisses
Haven't found that distraction yet, but I haven't given up on finding it yet. I however have to remember to keep my morals, my everythings, intact though.
Had another weird dream last night, rather sexual, but so freakish weird, I felt like I was on a non-stop train to Hell when I woke up. In my dreams , I'm always the observer, like the events do not happen to me, but I still feel the fear or the emotions that come with the event. Last night was no different. Always looking in on something spectacular/or horrid, happening to someone else. but its always someone else, never really to me. Once in a while, Im stabbed or choked or something happens, but as you can see, I could count the times...as if "once in a while" is a numeric value. To me it is, it signifies a "not enough" as it would pertain to the item I'm talking of. Ok, I even lost myself there...I always do that. Back to the always looking on , as it happens to someone else, even my actual life has been like that recently. Always the looker-on-er (say it slowly). More like the loner. Let me not mope anymore, I'm sure there are lots of people would would prefer, being alone than to be with the one they are with now. Let me know. I could be so wrong, I'm far, very far from being the authority here.
kisses
Thursday, October 21, 2004
Blank Not
A myriad of emotions, rock me this morn. I don't even know which is which.They came so fast. I really had to add POWER to all my moves in step aerobics this morn, to try, just try to get the 'kinks' out. I feel as if my head isn't mine, and coming to think of it, that's nothing new to me. "Africa" by Toto is playing. Love that one. This makes the coffee go down better.
Again all the many emotions and thoughts bombard me. Why can't I get them settled. Yesterday I was blank, today I'm full of it...yes, it. I wish I was full of _________ instead. Here I go again. I need a disraction. Why don't they want me?
kisses
Again all the many emotions and thoughts bombard me. Why can't I get them settled. Yesterday I was blank, today I'm full of it...yes, it. I wish I was full of _________ instead. Here I go again. I need a disraction. Why don't they want me?
kisses
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
Why am I blank?
Hey,
Writer's block in T minus 2 seconds coming...
(insert crickets chirping here)
One would think that in my introduction to this 'bloging " thingie, my head would be popping open (literally) with so many thoughts and ideas, and dreams and etc.
But guess what, nada, nothing. All I can hear other than my coworkers, working in their respective cubicles, chatting, typing etc. is "How do U want it' by Tupac, which is playing on the radio. MAC rules!!
Sorry, to disappoint Neeksy, hope the weekend would prove more happening/fulfilling, if I can find a computer to blog on that is. You already know the answer to that.
Later...Kisses!!
Writer's block in T minus 2 seconds coming...
(insert crickets chirping here)
One would think that in my introduction to this 'bloging " thingie, my head would be popping open (literally) with so many thoughts and ideas, and dreams and etc.
But guess what, nada, nothing. All I can hear other than my coworkers, working in their respective cubicles, chatting, typing etc. is "How do U want it' by Tupac, which is playing on the radio. MAC rules!!
Sorry, to disappoint Neeksy, hope the weekend would prove more happening/fulfilling, if I can find a computer to blog on that is. You already know the answer to that.
Later...Kisses!!
